I had no idea so he had to tell me. He said that this girl posted a picture of the HPT yesterday and then wrote a post about how excited they were to be buying a house and having a baby. The first thought through my mind was, "Don't you know that 25% of pregnancies end in miscarriage?" and "A positive HPT does NOT mean a take home baby."
I don't know why they bother me so much and I wish I could be happy for each and every person that becomes pregnant and gets to experience all of the joys of pregnancy and motherhood. It is seriously one of the most amazing and miraculous things I have experienced in my life! Just knowing that we will never have a "surprise" pregnancy and that we have to go to the doctor if/when we want another, do at least three betas and see that the numbers are growing properly.... wait out that dreaded two week wait, and then another two week wait to get to the 7 week ultrasound that may or may not be good news.
Infertility has changed me. Some ways are good and others are not. Had I not suffered from infertility I wouldn't have have started a blog, met some amazing women, and definitely would not have two sets of twins. It was rough along the way, but I wouldn't change my journey for anything.
P.S. If you are reading this and still struggling with infertility, please leave me the link to your blog, I would love to cheer you on!!
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I understand. Very rarely am I genuinely, whole heartedly happy for pregnancy announcements. I can count on one had those I was happy for since 2010, and I'd still have a few fingers left on said hand.
Yes they still sting. I feel so stupid that they still sting seeing as I have two perfect angels and I am so fortunate in my life, why would this still bother me?
First of all, thank you for your sweet comment about my breastfeeding for 10 weeks! I suppose I should have said that it really is no longer painful, it just was for the first few weeks as you know. :) Secondly, I am really proud of you for being so open about your feelings. Since I'm going into this field it is really good for me to hear and read about others' experiences as it gives me more understanding and empathy. Not that I don't already. Anyway, you are a super strong mama and you have beautiful babies!! Thanks for following. :)
I understand your emotions; I really do. But I didn't have your experience with IVF. Fourteen years ago I had a miscarriage... while two of my friends who were pregnant at the same time went on to have healthy babies. And continued to grow their families, while I was told I couldn't have children. Though I didn't go through IVF, after the miscarriage and the many fears of this past pregnancy, I want to tell women that anything can happen... to say prayers and count blessings... because life is precious and you just never know what will happen...
I just stumbled upon your blog. I, too, am dealing with infertility. My husband and I don't have the money to go through IVF. We have had 6 rounds of IUI. The fourth was successful, but ended in a miscarriage at roughly 8 weeks. Your story gives me some hope. My blog is http://headedforhappiness.blogspot.com/
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