Stress

I had a very stressful first day back at school to say the least.  I won't go into any details, but let's just say that this could be a very interesting school year.

I am feeling so stressed out and I just have no idea what to do about it.  I need to find a way to get rid of some of this anxiety that does not include alcohol, caffeine, working out, yelling at people, getting out of the house alone, breaking stuff, throwing a fit, complaining to coworkers, driving really fast, or really anything else that I might normally think of.  Perhaps a glass of warm milk you say? Gross.

I was thinking that I would tell people at work this week that I'm pregnant, but I don't think I will.  I have the NT scan/first trimester screening on September 5th so I might just wait until after then or when my belly looks suspiciously pregnant.

I had an OB appointment on Monday and so I asked how long I should plan to work this time and he said maybe only until Christmas or sometime into January.  I'm assuming if things look okay (cervix not dilating, etc.) them maybe I can work a little bit longer so who knows.  I found out today that my work does not have short term disability insurance.  So, basically if I have to go on leave early I will either have to use my 12 weeks of FMLA leave time and go back to work for a few weeks at the end of the school year or take extra unpaid leave where I would probably have to pay for my own insurance as well.  Neither of those options are great, so I am just going to hope that I can work until 35 weeks again like last time.   I really need to talk to somebody in HR just to firm up what I think I already know, but I'm just not ready for them to "officially" know that I'm pregnant again.

I think this post is a good indicator of what is going on in my brain right now.... very random thoughts all over the place.  I guess that's what the beginning of the school year does to me :)