One Year Blogaversary

One year ago (yesterday) I started blogging!  What a year its been I must say.  I started this blog as a way to vent my feelings and not take them out on other people.  I miscarried early November and felt so alone and like no one understood what I was going through.  I was at the lowest of lows in my life and didn't know how I was going to dig my way out.  The only way I knew how to deal with things was to keep going with the fertility treatments.  I thought that if I kept pursuing my goal of becoming a mother then the pain would go away. 

Don't get me wrong, I still think about that baby that could have been. But had that soul not been lost, I would have never met my beautiful Charlotte and Evelyn that I am so lucky to have. 

Becoming part of the bloggie community has taught me a lot about patience and perseverance. I have connected with others that are in the same situation with regards to infertility.  Some women have had success since I started reading their blogs and some still have yet to see a positive HPT.  In fact, one of the gals that I follow just today saw her first positive test after 3 years of TTC!!  Congrats girl!  I am so happy for her.  Anyways, I have to say that I am one of the fortunate ones that have beaten infertility and have a success story to tell.  This blog has served as a diary of my journey and something that I will share with the girls when they are older.  I hope they will know how much they are loved and wanted and if they ever question it I suppose I have these memories to show them just how special they are and how many people supported us on the journey to conceive them. 

I plan to continue blogging but I suppose I have made the shift now to talking about parenthood.  Being a twin mom, I know I have more challenges than others may have but I also have a different perspective on motherhood as well. 

Happy Anniversary Brian!!

Today marks SIX years since Brian and I have been married! I can't believe it has been that long.  We dated for just over five years before we got married so we have been together for 11 years!!  Eleven happens to be my lucky number and it is also 2011 so it just had to be a good year for us, right?

Its crazy to think about what a difference one year makes.  Last year around this time we had just gone through our first pregnancy loss (chemical pregnancy) and were trying to figure out what to do next. This year we are 28weeks and 3 days preggo with our first two baby girls! 

It really is amazing to think back at all that we have been through together since we started dating in 2000..... Brian's car accident, graduating college (bachelors and masters programs) moving to Colorado, and starting a family! If I said it has been easy I would be lying, but I do think that all of these things have made me the person that I am today and that I have learned to deal with just about anything that comes my way.  I hope that we have been through enough and that maybe the universe will be nice to our kids and they won't have to deal with the crap that we have had to. 

Usually we go out to dinner or do something traditional for our anniversary, but today a friend of ours is hosting a couples baby shower at our house!  It has been a ton of work to get everything ready (especially since we just finished remodeling the basement) but it will be really nice to share this day with our friends here in Colorado! 

Oh, and the crib mattress arrived from Fed Ex today! Yahoo!