One year ago (yesterday) I started blogging! What a year its been I must say. I started this blog as a way to vent my feelings and not take them out on other people. I miscarried early November and felt so alone and like no one understood what I was going through. I was at the lowest of lows in my life and didn't know how I was going to dig my way out. The only way I knew how to deal with things was to keep going with the fertility treatments. I thought that if I kept pursuing my goal of becoming a mother then the pain would go away.
Don't get me wrong, I still think about that baby that could have been. But had that soul not been lost, I would have never met my beautiful Charlotte and Evelyn that I am so lucky to have.
Becoming part of the bloggie community has taught me a lot about patience and perseverance. I have connected with others that are in the same situation with regards to infertility. Some women have had success since I started reading their blogs and some still have yet to see a positive HPT. In fact, one of the gals that I follow just today saw her first positive test after 3 years of TTC!! Congrats girl! I am so happy for her. Anyways, I have to say that I am one of the fortunate ones that have beaten infertility and have a success story to tell. This blog has served as a diary of my journey and something that I will share with the girls when they are older. I hope they will know how much they are loved and wanted and if they ever question it I suppose I have these memories to show them just how special they are and how many people supported us on the journey to conceive them.
I plan to continue blogging but I suppose I have made the shift now to talking about parenthood. Being a twin mom, I know I have more challenges than others may have but I also have a different perspective on motherhood as well.